A Thank You to my Cailen

Dear Cailen,

Mommy worked very hard to get out the door this morning before 8AM.

This required a lot of rushing on her part, and a lot of time where you had to stay in your pack n play.

You played quietly and watched the Upside Down show so happily, without a peep. Even when you saw mommy rush in and out of the room without coming to get you, something that usually sends you into hysterics.

You even watched as mommy left the house to put your carseat into the car after daddy borrowed it last night. Mommy came back into the house and saw your smiling face - not the usual panic-stricken face that looks as though you wondered if mommy left you forever.

You didn't shed ONE tear this morning, and that alone made mommy's day.

But, when Mommy was holding you, her work bag, your diaper bag, and your enormous cooler bag full of bottles and food, and struggled to close the door behind her, your head and her head went "clonk."

Mommy said "oops!"And when you burst into such explosive laughter, mommy had to stop rushing just to watch your face find such joy in something so ordinary. And a little painful.

And, with each step down our long, long set of concrete steps, as mommy struggled to carry you and everything else, your laughter continued and continued and just got deeper and sweeter.

And as much as mommy had to rush, she took her sweet time getting down those steps this morning. Because nothing is more important than hearing you laugh, and laugh, and laugh.Thank you for, once again, reminding me of whats important.

By the way - I still arrived to work on time, so it pays to slow down once in a while.

I love you, baby bear.

Mommy